Love ?? or .. ??

to Love without being loved by return.

when you're in love, and you don't know whether the other party loves you back or not... some of you might just let them know about your feelings, and have a broken heart after that. or you'd rather keep the feelings to yourself and love him/her silently instead.

when you really love a person, even a glimpse of him/her will make your day already. and even a smile from him would brightens your days throughout the entire upcoming week.

BUT (there's always but)

the WORST part of loving a person is when the person you love is loving another girl/guy. you would feel so hurt that you could commit suicide! (okay, I'm exaggerating)
but then, after you came back to your senses, you'd say "I'm happy as long as you're happy." and you would (by time) let him/her go...

there's one BEST part of loving a person. it's that even after you found out that he/she is not meant to be yours, you'd still love him/her. and you'd say "Why can't I hate you?"...

to be Loved without loving back by return.

a guy/girl confessed to you that he/she loves you so so very much (or anything equal). if he/she is a handsome/pretty person then, I don't think it's a problem right (lumrah manusia). but what if he/she is not really your type, but then he/she is a kind person. you can't just ignore them. you'd feel guilty that you can't love them back.

then, you'll try to push them away so that he/she will really move on. and there'll be a problem with some people (OBSESSED people to be exact) he/she will kinda force you to be with them. "You can try to love me later. Just let me be your gf/bf first." or they'll force you to reconsider.
and here is the part where you will get annoyed. "Ohh shut up. I won't like you!" (orang macam ni memang tak faham bahasa agaknya. and dah tak faham erti TAKDA JODOH.)

see? from a guilty feeling, it grows to a bigger problem which is annoyance. then, what do you do? just let him/her be that way, keep annoying you? or would you try and try again to make yourself love him/her? or perhaps, you'd PRETEND to love him/her? (okay, this one adalah sangat tidak digalakkan).

for me:

yes, the HURT feeling is worse than the GUILT feeling, but I'd still prefer to love than to be loved.

*selfish kan?

tapi actually, I don't like feeling guilty.

kesian orang tu, dia menyayangi kita sepenuh hati, tapi kita tak dapat nak balas.

kira macam, aku lebih rela diri sendiri rasa sakit

daripada tengok orang lain rasa sakit.

(sweet tak? LOL)

conclusion:

to love without being loved in return = HURT.
to be loved without loving back in return = GUILT.
&and to love and being loved in return is just MIRACLE. 

just believe that one fine day you'd find your own miracle. :)

pesanan: 

janganlah desperate sangat nak cari boyfriend/girlfriend sekarang ni. bukan boleh kenyang pun kalau dah bercinta tu. tapi, kalau dah jumpa yang baik, takda salahnya jugak. (:Kalau dah jodoh xkemana ~!!